"A planned life is a closed life"

"A planned life is a closed life" seems to be the story of mine. It's a quote from the movie The Inn of the 6th Happiness. It's a wonderful true story of a women who is "unqualified" to go to a remote region of China as a missionary and ends up being excatly the right person.  God used her to bring hope and health to a forgotted and poor people and to save hundreds of children's lives in the face of the Japanese attack on China. The point being that it is usually what we did not plan that ends up being the joy, wonder, excitement, and fullfillment of our lives.  So, as I have discovered that I am two months pregnant my life has been opened wide.

So, where does this put sweet Gabe? Well, every medical person I have spoken to has told me not to ride and that I am crazy for doing so, because of the chance of falling.  I figure I have a greater chance of being in a car accident than falling off of Gabe. Besides, if Mother Mary can ride a donkey while pregnant than why can't I ride my horse? It's not like I'm going to compete in the next Rolex or Kentucky Derby. I've certainly backed off a lot.  For those who ride and understand some of the deep truths of it, will know that it's not just a physical thing, it's emotional and in ways spiritual.  Besides, I think Gabe knows. This time has been very sweet and calming.  I'm not rushing towards anything and that has passed onto Gabe.  I'm not thinking about the next thing or pushing myself or Gabe.  I'm just enjoying being in it, in this time, in this place, in this moment.